There are many docs, nurses, practitioners and hospitals in my community who study nutrition, promote it and share it with their patients. There is growth happening, as I write this, scientists are testing theories about how fruits and veggies impact our cells. There are people healing physically from meditation as i write this too.
However, at age 19, I visited my doctor begging for help and also in tears… I was telling him how horrible I felt, how none of these pills worked for me and that I could tell my body was not handling the pills well and I wanted to know why I felt like this and why so many prescriptions…? My digestion was a mess, I was in massive pain and riddled with anxiety and fear, I needed help and felt desperate.
I developed Shingles that year, I had high cholesterol and I was living with migraines every week, once I ended up on an IV in the hospital. I lived on allergy meds and cold meds daily. I was smoking a pack a cigarettes a day and eating a lot of sugar and soda. I had horrible hormonal changes that my instinct says was from the birth control pill. After stopped it, my cycle disappeared. My digestive system was under fire and I was exhausted. I wanted to know why I felt so miserable and unhealthy before I was even 20…
I asked about it being food or the things I was eating. I said to the doc, “you know, I did some research online and I read about dairy and ….”
The doc spoke next, “Renee, all of that food stuff is just a placebo effect, it is not going to work. Then he pulled out his prescription pad and started writing down some drugs.
One of the prescriptions had the worst imaginable side effects. I still remember the exact moment and location in my house when I read about the effects it would have on my body on the internet (in 1998).
This was a huge turning point in my life. I was angry and I wanted to take a stand for a different way. I threw those drug slips in the trash and decided to figure it out myself. It’s amazing what a powerful catalyst anger can be.
I was so angry and I finally learned that I was angry at myself!
I wasn’t authoring my own life in an important area for my growth – my health, self worth, trust and body.
I had forgotten my creativity and felt lost. I was looking for love and to be seen in all the wrong types of relationships, situations and projects.
I was neglecting myself. I didn’t speak up for my needs. I was lacking confidence.
If you knew me then, you wouldn’t have known it because I had a great deal of confidence to all that new me but what i soon found was that most of it was a codependence disguised as a fake confidence. Back then I would change and adapt my personality and desires so that others would like me. It’s what I learned.
Do you want to know your purpose? It’s to teach what you are learning.
You are both teacher and student. You are giving and receiving. You are seeking balance or pleasure. You want to feel healthy.
Once you have it, you share this goodness with those around you – your kids, your coworkers, your family and friends. This changes the world.
So your job is to grow and love and share it.
In order to do this, you have to see the big illusion many of us are under. It’s the story we have created since we were young about who we think we are.
That story is not accurate. You are so incredibly unique that it would be a shame for you to continue to choose to live in the box set story that you have made up with the help of the adults around you and culture that raised you.
You are far more than your story. I was far more than the story I told myself about young girl who would never be perfect or liked.
I decided not to be defined anymore. I burned my old stories.
Fire transforms things and changes it. I ask for support in releasing the patterns and beliefs that have lead me to seeing such lack and fear. I ask to see the situation differently. I don’t know how it’s going to unfold, that’s not my job. That’s when I let go and breathe.
I am the author of the inner dialogue I hear.
The first step I took back then to start making change was journaling and tea.
Self love was making tea. I liked to make ginger-lemon tea and I even went out and bought a quality tea kettle at age 20. I recall saving up for the $25 it was going to cost me.
All of my family – we have spent many moments bonding over a cup of tea. It’s what I learned.
And it’s wear I started learning self worth and how food impact my body and mind. It was during this time that I made a life changing decision to change the way I ate and how I fed myself. It’s changed my entire life.
I teach you a way to trust yourself, your intuition and your world. It impacts your key relationships, your body, your career, your purpose in life.
Many valuable lessons come through adversity. This may feel like that kind of thing for you or may you are just tired of watching yourself repeat patterns over. Maybe you just aren’t happy and you to notice what is happening or why but your instinct is that it is the food and probably some other things too.
I like to imagine what would be possible in our world, if we had more conscious, awake and healthy people. I know that we’d have a lot more love being spread instead of hate. The game changer is that it begins with loving and feeding you first. You have to start there and stop blaming everything outside of you for your problems.
More on this another day. For now, go make some tea and journal, it helps.
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Be healthy today,